Life lessons - Young love

I've been spending the past few days thinking about the events which has been recurring to me and also the ones in the past. Was listening to this song over Kbox the other day with xavier, denson and kc and I started to reminiscence the days where I was head over heels over one of my school's school belle. She was also one of the people who contributed to my change.


You guessed that right lolol, she was the one who recommended me this song x)

Ahhh... how many years has it been... 5?

I was 15 back then and still looking like this (figure which one is me lolol)
So yeah, I was head over heels over our school belle (let's name her J.... what girl name starts with the letter J LOL . AH OKAY. JASMINE). Soo yeah, it was a pretty one sided thing whereby I was trying continuously for an extended period of 8 months trying to woo her and stuff.

It's also the longest time I've actually spent trying to woo someone lolol. But you know the saying, what comes easy doesn't last. So yeah, I wanted to try my best and at least make her happy?

BUT like all the other common school belles, they're as cold and stuck up as fuck. Thinking back, I've no idea why and how I've managed to persevere throughout that 8 months long period.

There are a couple of "milestones" that I remember though.... like how I spent an entire month folding more than 1000 paper stars, with words of advice, love poems, jokes and more... written in each and every one of these stars. I kept these stars in a bottle (how cliche -.-) and gave it to her during her birthday, along with a couple of other surprises.

One of the funny things about the chasing period (that I remember), was how one of my ex-gf; QY was telling me stuff about how she doesn't like Jasmine blahblah. But all that's processing in my mind was that she was jealous lolol.

But moving on, throughout that 8 months, I acted like a guardian angel for Jasmine. Whenever she has a cut during art or whatever, I would run to the LRT/bookshop to get a plaster and deliver it specially to her. Whenever she's feeling down over someone she likes, I'll be there to cheer her up. I occasionally surprise her with gifts under her class desk. Ahhh, young love lolol.

I kinda wonder how did I even do those stuff when I was younger. I think that's what they call puppy/young love hahaha. If you ask me to fold 1000 paper stars for someone now, I'll be paying someone else to do it for me lol.

But yeah, after 8months. Jasmine and I had a terrible misunderstanding and quarrel whereby she scolded me till i cried like mad (the funny thing is that I cry easily when it comes to love (friends/family/rs) but not other stuff ). AND I SWEAR that that was one of my epic life changing moments. I've changed a lot of ever since that day. I've become a pans.... (if you read my formspring you'll know), I've changed and became more conscious of my looks and even more.

Not saying that the changes I've been through was a bad thing, but it's these changes that let me to view life in a different perspective. Life won't always go your way and love will never be as smooth sailing as the ones you've seen in the movies.

8 months is a seriously long period of time and I've wasted it. But at that moment, it was one of my happiest and hopeful times. I was hopeful that If I persevered long enough, one day I'll be able to make Jasmine like me back. And then it hit me...

The song she let me listen? An jing le by SHE.  (I shall re-embed the video if you've yet to listen to it)

The lyrics for this song:

我知道相爱原本就不容易爱不是一场雨努力就有结局

Which is translated to " I know loving each other is not an easy thing from the beginning. Love does not have an ending by only effort."

Life doesn't work out that way we want to. Just because we work hard, it doesn't mean that we'll be able to get what we want in the end. The only thing we get through this, are experiences and life lessons which helps to groom our personality and character in a long run.

Throughout all these, I've learned, That you cannot make someone love you, all you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back. I've learned, that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it. That it's not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts.

I've learned, that it's taking me a long time to become the person that I want to be. And that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. As it may be the last time you see them and get the chance to tell them you love them. 

Other life lessons I've learned, is that either you control your attitude or it controls you. That regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is a first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place - Appreciate that person, cause that person can definitely find someone better than you. 


I've learnt that it isn't always good enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you must learn to forgive yourself. That no matter how bad a heart is broken; the world doesn't stop for your grief. 

And for those who're reading.

Know that, just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. And that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated. 

3 comments:

  1. Tyler , i love your blogpost a lot . So relatable but mine is only 6 months , but no matter what . That incident led to me , changing into someone better and more conscious of my appearance too . This post really made me realise that the wait was kinda worth it . (: Thanks Tyler !

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