Learn to love yourself before you can love another?

Ever heard of the quote " Learn to love yourself before you can love another? " 

Sometimes I wonder why do people think that way? There are some theories that the quote is something like being told to milk a cow but not knowing what a cow is. The goat won't like you, the chickens will cluck, the car's gasoline won't taste very good etc. 

Sometimes we think that we need someone to love us before we can learn to love ourselves fully. Why so? 

For me, I've never looked at myself and got blown away by the privilege of being in my own body, or having my own mind, living my own life (even though there are many others dying to be me). I've never felt that thrilling infatuation, connection nor owning an awesome grin-kind-of-pride-smile (if you know what i mean). Even when someone tells me that they like me or they love me, it was like millions of words, going through several translating programs before they came back to my ears. I knew what they meant, really... But it's just that I don't know if it was an expression whose meaning I didn't really recognize. I couldn't acknowledge it, and all I knew was to change the topic or to keep quiet. 
I think that there will perhaps be no one who can ever bridge the gap to my stomach or my hair or my eyes or my face in the mirror and make me looks at things optimistically or see things in a wonderful way. In other words, I think there has been no one who has been able to be happy that/when they're next to me, while making me feel the same way too.
Maybe all this is just a fear inside of me- that no one will ever truly feel about me the same way I do to them. Maybe what I want inside, is someone who can make me love myself , to make all those quotes about love and positive rhetoric make sense, or making the scene where blasting music and driving along the empty roads in Singapore, (not)the happiest thing I can think of doing. Maybe all of us just needs someone who can make us feel so sure of how wonderful things around us are that you can't help but to tell them your feelings first, even if it's at the risk of being humiliated (you know, being rejected and stuff).

But in the end, it's a matter of making sure that, when you're telling them that you love them, what you're really saying is " I love who I become when I am with you ".

ANYWAY....I AM SO FREAAAAKING HAPPY CAUSE MY EXAMS IS COMING TO AN END ON TUESDAY :D  I'm just hoping that I'll be able to pass all my papers so that I would not need to retake any of the modules!!!

Oh and another thing, sorry for the lack of updates recently. I've just gotten my repaired casio camera and I'm ready to snap away again :D There would be lots of changes to this blog once my final paper has been concluded! So do check back more oftenly k! :)

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